I can't seem to let it out. All of the things that I've had on my mind lately, I don't tell them. But now they're digging into me, and lately, I've been thinking of things all of the time. Should I tell this? Even my blog isn't safe. I don't publish these kinds of things here. I keep them in my head.
Yes, I'm so cheerful everyday you see me. I smile at you politely, and I laugh at your jokes. I listen to you; I talk to you. No one knows the problems that I have. And I cannot tell anyone. I don't think it's trust issues, but then again, I wouldn't know. I fully trust only a few people (not even my own mother). I just can't find myself to tell anyone anything. I guess it's because if I don't tell anyone, then they won't tell anyone either. I don't want people to know my weak spots. All of the pressure that I feel that's on me, from parents and from friends. It's dragging me down, but somehow I always manage to overcome it.
But now it's building up inside of me with almost no possibility for escape. I want to scream for help, but who should I turn to? No one will understand.
When you see me tomorrow, I'll look happy for you, like I do everyday. You will never know this side of me because you have never seen it. I don't always seem to know the reason, but for now.. I will smile for you tomorrow.
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maggiiiiie :(
ReplyDeletedon't feel so bad. everyone has things like this.
idk if you can fully trust me, but ill always be here for you. ill listen to you if you ever need someone to grab.
and i hope you dont make fun of me for saying this tomorrow. >:P